as promised, updating about the up&down yesterday.
first of all, must apologise to those who talked to me yesterday.
i really had no braincell to think about how to react.
especially to wei cos i was supposed to share any news with her,
but i was.. overwhelmed, couldn’t think straight.
still, thanks ahboy, thanks jean. 
10+am, received a message from ahboy.
dashed out of the tutorial room to call her.
two girls crying over the phone and asking what is happening, what are we going to do now.
things sounded utterly utterly rotten.
i desperately needed internet connection and an air ticket to taiwan.
i wished i could blast their songs and reject any contact with humans.
however, no choice but to go back into tutorial room.
i seriously couldn’t get a word into my head after returning.
worse of all, it has to be IBS later in the day.
the fussy tutor.. haiiii.
well, i managed to smoke through the last-minute presentation.
it was a series of reading and crying upon reaching home.
felt a little better, because i know, we will prove it to him so what we don’t want won’t happen.
internet’s live broadcast couldn’t function yesterday, damn.
ample news and reports made me can’t wait for 10pm, Singapore’s telecast of wanyu.
got super high when he made things clear that he won’t leave.
he will pay us back doubly hard instead.
as long as there’s someone that want to see him perform, he won’t leave,
he will keep his promise.
so in all, i was smiling to sleep yesterday, though drained.
the feeling of seeing him cry,
the comfortness when he said he will work doubly hard to pay us back,
the happiness to see his face filled with blessings,
the reassurance that this is the him, the one who cares for fans and hate to lie to fans,
and the relief that ‘he and she’ in his mouth can finally become ‘we’,
these things cannot be explained.
i don’t know how to put it across that we knew it was real from his cannot-bear-to-deny attitude,
but why it still mattered a great deal to fans.
many think it’s like “oh yah. they finally admit.”
i don’t like to mention these things to people who don’t understand how come it’s such a great deal and get angry over reactions that are insulting.
you have to be a fan of someone to understand.
those who will understand will understand.
because of the hype mood,
even a wednesday seems so nice when it’s usually my most hated day. :p
better ciao,
my bro is telling my parents i’m super busy because of renfu,
cos i’m stuck to the computer since i reached home. :p
*cheerios!*
countdown: within 9days
